Book contents
- Frontmatter
- Dedication
- Contents
- Notes on Contributors
- Acknowledgements
- 1 Openings and Introductions: Education for the Many, Prison for the Few
- 2 From Prisoner to Student
- Vignette 1 Choosing My Journey
- 3 Pioneers and Politics: Open University Journeys in Long Kesh During the Years of Conflict 1972–75
- Vignette 2 Avoiding the Mind-Numbing Vortex of Drivel …
- 4 A University Without Walls
- Vignette 3 Starting a New Chapter
- 5 Open Universities, Close Prisons: Critical Arguments for the Future
- Vignette 4 Out of the Abysmal
- 6 The Light to Fight the Shadows: On Education as Liberation
- 7 From Despair to Hope
- Vignette 5 Making my Commitment
- 8 Straight Up! From HMP to PhD
- 9 From Open University in Prison to Convict Criminology Upon Release: Mind the Gap
- Vignette 6 Message to a Prisoner
- 10 From the School of Hard Knocks to the University of Hard Locks
- 11 Becoming me with The Open University
- Vignette 7 Catching up with Kafka
- 12 From D102 to Paulo Freire: An Irish Journey
- Vignette 8 My Journey, My New Life
- 13 Ex-Prisoners and the Transformative Power of Higher Education
- Vignette 9 Prison Choices: Taking a Degree or Packing Tea?
- 14 What the OU did for me
- Appendix Study with The Open University
- Index
8 - Straight Up! From HMP to PhD
Published online by Cambridge University Press: 11 March 2021
- Frontmatter
- Dedication
- Contents
- Notes on Contributors
- Acknowledgements
- 1 Openings and Introductions: Education for the Many, Prison for the Few
- 2 From Prisoner to Student
- Vignette 1 Choosing My Journey
- 3 Pioneers and Politics: Open University Journeys in Long Kesh During the Years of Conflict 1972–75
- Vignette 2 Avoiding the Mind-Numbing Vortex of Drivel …
- 4 A University Without Walls
- Vignette 3 Starting a New Chapter
- 5 Open Universities, Close Prisons: Critical Arguments for the Future
- Vignette 4 Out of the Abysmal
- 6 The Light to Fight the Shadows: On Education as Liberation
- 7 From Despair to Hope
- Vignette 5 Making my Commitment
- 8 Straight Up! From HMP to PhD
- 9 From Open University in Prison to Convict Criminology Upon Release: Mind the Gap
- Vignette 6 Message to a Prisoner
- 10 From the School of Hard Knocks to the University of Hard Locks
- 11 Becoming me with The Open University
- Vignette 7 Catching up with Kafka
- 12 From D102 to Paulo Freire: An Irish Journey
- Vignette 8 My Journey, My New Life
- 13 Ex-Prisoners and the Transformative Power of Higher Education
- Vignette 9 Prison Choices: Taking a Degree or Packing Tea?
- 14 What the OU did for me
- Appendix Study with The Open University
- Index
Summary
Over a decade ago, my life was completely different. I was involved in the drugs scene in London and had fully embraced a criminal lifestyle. At the time, I saw it as a means of earning a living and felt there were no viable alternatives to the path that lay in front of me. I had a drugs habit, sold drugs and was indifferent to the consequences of my actions. In retrospect, my worldview was flawed, immature for my years and I lacked much in terms of having a moral compass. My attitude was negative, one of contempt for the law and that contempt was fashioned out of my negative encounters with it. I saw the law as a tool used by the powerful to oppress the poor and socially marginalised.
Leaving school without any formal qualifications and other personal factors such depression, a lack of ambition or belief in my own abilities resulted in low expectations. Growing up in poverty on a council estate in London, I was accustomed to ‘looking after’ myself from an early age. I found school boring and constraining and, having already learnt to read and write, I wrongly believed these were the only skills that mattered. By the time of my father's sudden and unexpected death in a road accident at the age of 53, I had become disillusioned with life. Although I was not particularly close to my parents, mainly because they disapproved of my anti-social behaviour, losing my dad at the age of 17 was a big deal for me. It meant that there was nobody to keep me in check and I promptly left home ‘officially’. However, the chances of securing meaningful and gainful employment were low, even though I had experience of working in low-paid manual jobs with few, if any, future prospects. To me, they all represented a dead-end.
On the other hand, dealing in illegal drugs paid immediate benefits, despite the obvious risks involved. Motivated by greed and the potential material rewards involved, I prioritised making large sums of money over everything else in my life, including my wife and daughter. The desire to provide for the day-to-day needs of my young family was intense and I was determined to achieve it at any cost and by any means available to me.
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- Degrees of FreedomPrison Education at The Open University, pp. 125 - 138Publisher: Bristol University PressPrint publication year: 2019