Book contents
- Frontmatter
- Contents
- Foreword: Bill Freund and the Making of His Autobiography
- Family Tree
- A Brief Introduction
- 1 The Austrian Past
- 2 The Aftermath of War: A Perilous Modernity
- 3 The Dark Years
- 4 A New Life in America
- 5 Adolescence: First Bridge to a Wider World
- 6 As a Student: Chicago and Yale
- 7 As a Student: Africa and England
- 8 The Tough Years Begin
- 9 An Intellectual and an African: Nigeria
- 10 An Intellectual and an African: Dar es Salaam and Harvard
- 11 South Africa, My Home
- Notes
- Select Bibliography of Bill Freund’s Publications
- List of Illustrations
- Author’s Acknowledgements
- Supplementary Acknowledgements
- Index
8 - The Tough Years Begin
Published online by Cambridge University Press: 15 June 2021
- Frontmatter
- Contents
- Foreword: Bill Freund and the Making of His Autobiography
- Family Tree
- A Brief Introduction
- 1 The Austrian Past
- 2 The Aftermath of War: A Perilous Modernity
- 3 The Dark Years
- 4 A New Life in America
- 5 Adolescence: First Bridge to a Wider World
- 6 As a Student: Chicago and Yale
- 7 As a Student: Africa and England
- 8 The Tough Years Begin
- 9 An Intellectual and an African: Nigeria
- 10 An Intellectual and an African: Dar es Salaam and Harvard
- 11 South Africa, My Home
- Notes
- Select Bibliography of Bill Freund’s Publications
- List of Illustrations
- Author’s Acknowledgements
- Supplementary Acknowledgements
- Index
Summary
My annus mirabilis was certainly 1969. The world seemed an exciting place to be and I really enjoyed this phase of life; the year enormously enriched me and changed me. I thought this was the foundation of my future adult life and didn't heed how weak the material basis was for its continuation. Once I was back in New Haven, eager to write up my thesis and move on to a job as soon as possible, the curtain came down and the bad times essentially began. It would be many years before I woke up in the morning with a feeling of longer-term security.
There had been a couple of curtain-raisers. What were the warning signs? At some point in the spring of 1968, a visitor of some note whose specialty was Africa came to Yale. I got wind of this when favoured undergraduates were invited to meet him, but I was left out. I complained (to William Roger Louis, I think) and did get to attend the event, but in the end felt that what had happened was indicative of something I hadn't suspected and was not a good omen.
More to the point, that spring I failed my big oral exam. I had no idea what that exam would be like. I assumed it would be essentially factual and did not expect analytical questions that had no real connection with one another. I had never failed any sort of test in my life, so this came as a big shock. In order to move on and get on with research, I had to have a second go. For this I was better prepared and I have the slightly schlocky memory that someone was playing the Beatles’ ‘Hey Jude’ when I was permitted to take a short break in the middle. I felt confident I was through, and indeed I was. Given Yale's generosity in supporting my research, I put this unpleasant story out of my memory.
The reality is that in the spring of 1970 I entered the academic job market assuming that a job would follow as smoothly as everything else had since I entered college, but this proved instead to be an absolute sticking point, which took over my life for many years, as if a dark cloud sat in the sky.
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- Bill FreundAn Historian's Passage to Africa, pp. 109 - 118Publisher: Wits University PressPrint publication year: 2021