Past ten, she has the desk lamp
in my study lit, to lure me
like a moth, she taunted,
home. Through the saplings
of Sophia Gardens, I see
the light prick darkness
like a spiteful eye.
She meets me on the landing
still in black—gaunt hand
resting on the newel post's
carved artichoke. Did I not also hold
the stillbirth in my palm
before they wrapped it in a pall
no bigger than my handkerchief?
I loathe her pallor, hate the acrid
odour when I douse the lamp.